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Saturday, December 12, 2009

boredom= damn sian

i totally dislike boredom, not doing anything.
i am tired of using the computer, of the same things i do online.
i don't want to be a couch potato.
i am tired of trying to slim down and going to the gym.
i am tried of reading the newspaper so meticulously just to kill time and am tired of reading about how the earth is dying, of political crashes and such. but what to do?
i am tired of being tired.

Eliminate all of these that i do to kill boredom, i am seriously really bored.

I have tried to enrich my life, and start to borrow books to read again.
There are many things i wanted to do, but i am restricted due to money.
I will not hesitate to say that money is the way to happiness.
It is. In this current world at least. No money, no talk, no fun, no shit.

I want my freaking results now, though i know not what i will do from then (if the results are not as what i wished for :( )
The time i have no is killing me.

I may be just complaining one month later about how having a job is tiring but it beats doing nothing. At least a job gives you money for the time, at least you are DOING something. And when you have the money, you will be able to do more things! To enrich my life as such. To go for more lessons. To know what i am going to do.

I am a stay home bum T.T

Well. I haven't been blogging much despite utter boredom-ness. Here is a recap on the second week since a levels had ended.

On monday.
Just happens that i was paying attention to the horoscope corner in the straits time. Which i forgot about it until I was home again.
"A friend makes a request late in the day and you would do well to respond quickly. Even if you are tired or stressed out, helping him in a small way is sure to pay off for you".
Well well, yeah! Daniel happened to be bored, so just happen to see the message after i came home from the gym, doing nothing the whole day too, soo yeah, heck care (since there's suppose to have dinner at home etc) and go out.
So we finsihed out dinner within like 5 minutes so that we could go catch the movie. Met up with Cheryl and her friends, whom are teachers to be as well. We watched this movie called "An Education", a coming-of-age movie as it was described as. It was good i must say! And that was the first time i watched a not really mainstream movie on theatres. Got this feeling that this movie might be used during lessons too.. haha, though it speaks about a smart girl and a play(old)boy. Then a mini supper at macs which we just sat there and talked till Cinderella has to go home.
yay.

The next thing that happened was on Friday, i went for my first job interview, not knowing what i am applying for too! I was feeling abit too bored and gutsy, and i just went. It was SO amazing and wonderful to see so many shoes at the factory which doesn't seem like a factory at all. There i was, telling myself, alright, i am just taking it easy, and for the fun of it. The interview wasn't as scary as i have thought it would be. The person told us that they would contact us within 7 days if we had made it through. When i reached home, i've got the call! like hurray. Yeah, i thought i had breeze through the interview as compared to those who were with me. Not that i am saying i am very good or whatsoever, i thought i was good. hahahah. very thick skin of me. So yeahh. But i am still waiting for the replies from other company which i last minutely sent resumes, or else i wouldn't be bumming at home till now.

I miss the friend whom i go for novena with about one year ago. I went for novena just now as usual, but i was alone. It didn't really bother me the past few times when i was there alone. But suddenly i was just thinking about one year ago, the same period all over again, when i have finished my a levels.
Brought some random rubble, spending money on impulse which i shouldn't have. But i am just feeling really pitiful for myself.

I am on repeat mode, while everyone else is moving on.
Is there something I have not seen along the way that i have to retake the route again?